MY ironic LIFE shall ends 2008

myriad phrases of emotions

with nowhr to go


no idea how to put it all in one postin


is it worth mentionin?

but who cares?


mi sis saes she wans to catch up w her peers

yes. how i wish i can do e same




stuck in a god forsaken prison w buddhas statues layin all over e place.


an ironic life. MY ironic life


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or is it jux mi?


i wan to untangle e mess of suffocation.


until den can i gain e freedom i wan.


but i noe i will eventually.


hopefully soon. . .



i pray that all bad tings wld be resolved


tt i can find back mi faith n courage to go on


MY LIFE in 2009 and beyond



: expect e unexpected

ALREADY A MILLION TIMES N COUNTIN ON. WEN WIL IT STOP. CAN IT BE STOP? NO

U CAME IN. JUX BCOS ANOTHER LIGHT IS ON U CAN JUX SCOLD US LIKE EVERY OTHER DAE!?! WHO GIVE U E RIGHT TO FLARE UP AS N WEN U LIKE?! R WE NOT UR CHILDREN R WE NOT E ONES WHO GAVE U SUPPORT WEN UR DOWN. HAF U FORGOTTEN OR U CHOOSE TO FORGET NOW THAT U HAF HER. WHO IS TER TO SUPPORT US NOONE!! R WE AS COLD BLOODED AS U. DUN WE HAF E RIGHT TO B ANGRY AND STRESS. R WE LIVING AS GOOD AS U TINK. DO U NOE HOW WE R LIVIN. DO U TINK UR E ONE WHO IS SUFFERING ALL ALONG. WHY R U TREATING US LIDAT. WE ALL HAF OUR FEELINGS. BUT U EXPECT US TO TINK OF URS ONLI. R WE NOT IMPT. U RATHER CHOOSE HER. U KEPT QUIET WEN SHE RANT AT US AS IF WE R JUX SUM WORTHLESS CREATURES WHO DESERVE ALL THESE FR A STRANGER!! WE CANT FIGHT BACK AT ALL. WHO CAN HELP US. WHO R U. I DUN MIND GETTIN BEATEN TO DEATH BY U. I RATHER U DO IT PLS. I JUX HATE IT WEN U ABUSE UR AUTHORITY AND KICK US AROUND LIKE ANIMALS. WHO R U TO DO TT. WHY HAF U CHANGED SO MUCH. PLS GET OUT OF HERE. WE DUN NID SUMONE LIKE U. DUN EXPECT MI TO TREAT U LIKE A HUMAN BEING SIMPLY BCOS U R NOT SANE ANIMORE. U WIL NV GAIN E RESPECT WE ONCE HAD SO DEARLY FOR U. UR OUT OF MI LIFE.

I HATE YOU

wat does family means to u?

its so hard jus to haf a decent meal at home. he n tt prc jus ate in their own world no care for anione of us. no words of comfort no smiles no bondin at all. instead lotsa anger shouts criticism beatings n not forgettin hurtful words like 'u r worse den a beast' etc. yeh..tts how mi 'family' treats mi. n tts not all..i wonder if anione noes but tis is e kinda life i haf been endurin for e past few yrs. yes. well i try to stay chirpy upfront but I noe i will nv ever wil haf e chance to relief e good old daes..i used to b his gal n respects him e most but now..he chose her instead of e five of us. . .how stupid.

i reli envy mi frens whose family tks care of them, toks to em, share their probs w em..simple tings tt i can nv attain animore..

i dun tink i wil tk care of u wen ur old n down..since all u ever nid is jus her. how stupid.

r a i n d r o p s i n m i h e a r t

i tink i m v disconnected w e world.lets c..nowadaes life is abt skool n mi beloved steve..home is jux a place i go bk to rest...home made dinner dun excite mi anymore. mi dad used to b a great cook..now wat can u expect w a bowl of rice n a huge plate of veges? jux plain veges almost every other daes...dun dey get sick? i tink i m losin mi appetite for food already..sigh*

was re-readin mi blog since e first entry..realized i was v pessimistic...how distant tt period of feelin is for mi now..i wonder if i hadnt met steve wil i carry on depressin miself lidat...i might seriously. dear do u noe how much u mean to mi? ;)

todae is a rainy dae...as always i wil b feelin esp moody..haha..is tis jux mi characteristic or wat? so was v bo liao..log in msn n haPpily found mi grape online..lolx...gotta disturb enghua n kw for awhile too..haha..partly aso bcos its hard to find frens to tok cock..i can b full of nonsenses sumtimes i tink frens wil b unbearable w mi? keke...it jux mi way of chillin out in tis weather so forgif mi ya? haha..

i misS mi frens todae..wonderin y is tt so? guess i hadnt been in touch w alot of em..frens whom i cherish n wish to spent more quality time w...sumhow it feels like time is nv enuff as we grow old..

i miss him too. purely jus tot of him sumtimes. n wonderin y he doesnt wan to contact mi? if u c tis line pls let mi noe how u tink of us as a fren. honestly i hope to treasure u as a fren now.. ;)

okie end of post. til more to come . . .



*~s H i~* cravin for tjp's mufFins! . . . . dr0ols . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

祝自己在新的一年会更充实，更开心~！！

Let go of the Past
and believe that watever we had Decided
was Right for us at that time

As time passes, situations Change
we might Haf changed, too
al0ng with our experiences

If where we r Now
is Not whr we want to b,
den its Time to decide again.

Finally, if it is True that deep inside each of us
is a void tt yearns to b filled by sum0ne Special
den let tt sumone b Ourself

HapPiness lies within us.
We will remain Incomplete as long as we
believe that happiness lies sumwhere outside us //


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haf a gReat year every0ne~! ;>